yeah!! nampaknye skali lg kami dserang dgn kerja bertubi2 drpd en.H yg disayangi slaloo.. sampai terbelit otak aku yg tak bape nak tegak ni... hohohoho... dgn tensennye mnyediakan resipi ayam penyet yg dia mahukan... terus terang ingin sy mngaku disini... ingin skali membayangkan ayam tersebut ialah EN.H tersebut... musti lega hatiku ini... ohoohohoohoo(ketawa dgn kejam lg zalim) puas hati aku...(pdhal aku yg rase mcm knn penyet dgn en H tu nih..) uhuhuhu... mr boo gak yg bek... eheheh... ni yg syg lebih nik... lega ada dier.. uhuhuhu... dala nak mandi... roger n out..

p/s:big hug for my fellow friend... hope u guys still hv big courage to fight this thing off...insyaallah... i also hope that i can get this thing through..
big love for my mr boo..

benci sorg rumet aku.... aku apatah lg... .. benci giler... aku rase da thap 1 umah tak bape ske dgn dier..penat bersabar dgn org yg ske nagging ni... mmg mencabar keimanan aku ni... dgar sore dier pon rse irritated giler... huarghh... sabar nor azni mohd yunos... setaun jek lagi...."staun???" rase mcm tak snggup jek... sedeh, tensen, benci... sume rase pon ade.. haiz... da la mr boo tak online... rindunyer...

p/s: rindu mr boo

wahahaha...melangkah setapak kehadapan aku hari ni... huhuhu... sonok sgt hari ni da setel rase lega biler da abes postmortem td.. fuhh lega tak bleh blah.. bayangkan la aku migrain dr pagi td sampai balik umah... buat keje dgn migrain dgn assistant tak bleh harap, dgn staff wat hal dgn someone nagging me all day long(hate her hee geram!!) tp hari rase ok dgn en.hafiz.. walopon dier marah tp aku rase keikhlasan dier.. seyesly wei.. aku pon tak tau nape.. kepala sakit mmg tak bleh blah.. rase nak tecabut sbelah kepala nik.. seb bek tak collapse.. da gelap da mate aku td mcm nak pitam tp alhamdulillah la kan, tuhan kuat kan smangat still dpt bertahan sampai mende ni abes... balik2 kelas terus cari lap top... rindu kat mr boo.. uhuhuhu hilang sket penat borak dgn mr boo.. huhuhu best! akhirnye.. stelah ketegangan yg di alami hari ni.. boleh jugak aku mengangkat mulut untuk tersenyum... thanks to him.. k la.. da penat.. nak mandi n tido..

p/s: i think i love him..

AKU PON TAK TAU PASAL NI... tkut pon ade suke pon ade risau pon ade.. adekah aku telah jatuh cinta atau ini cume mainan perasaan jek.. hmmm
arghh!!! ape ni wei... aku jatuh cinta ke dgn Mr. boo tu.. huhu.. ni yg susa kalo takde pengalaman ni.. tp aku ske kalo nampak muke dier... rase happy jek.. alamak mcm mane nak wat ni... ahh sudah la.. bia mase yg menentukan nyer... cewahh.. bru siap taipkan resipi dak2 ni utk jualan kiosk.. penat oo... naseb bek ade mr. boo. ohohohoho hilang sket penat.. ehehe =p takpe la.. aku da nak g print resipi ni... da.. roger n out..

p/s:mybe its love.. uhuhu gatai..

byknyer keje gue... haiz... mane 1 nak wat pon da x tau da ni.. dr persada, menu planning, nutrition, commercial, jualan kek, lab report, food safety, food law... sume nak kene ready... ape ni... seyesly beb... aku da blur giler kalo tgok list keje aku... hmmm.. ntahle.. sempat ke tak... so mlm ni nak kn stay up... besok g lab food safety yg lab reportnyer tak siap lg tuh... adoiyai... fenin la... ni pon bkak blog sbb jap lg nak siapkan blog persada ni.. giler punyer byk nak siapkan dgn koz aku yg mcm giler jadualnyer... tgok lab mggu ni rse nak pengsan jek.. bpak kejam... huish... rase namo wat jek... da la tak leh lelame kat sini nanti tak siap keje... roger n out! fighting!!!!!

tensen. tu la 1 1nye perkataan yg aku bleh cakap macam mane aku rase skang ni.. ape yg terjadi semakin menyakitkan kepala aku.. bila bende ni da jd, aku rse macam nak pergi.. aku seyesly aku mmg rs down giler.. aku rse mcm tak mampu wat ape skang ni.. nak nangis pon da tak mampu... nak ketawa pon tak bernyawa.. nak senyum pon rse tak sanggup.. aku cume harap ayat ni boleh motivasikan aku sampai ke akhirnye "tuhan bg cabaran ini sebab aku boleh harunginye"
roger..

i hate her... i can;t take it anymore. she is really annoying me... go to hell la... leave me alone. like i want to care whether u r alive or not... warghhh.. she always hurting my heart.. :'(..maybe i lok sporting but hey im sensitive girl okay.. ya Allah tolong la aku da than sgt2 da ni... tolong la buat dia hilang dr pandangan aku.. tak sggup nak tgok muka dier.. dr mase ke mase kian robek hati aku nik.. tolong la.. isu tu sensitif ok.. i think im about to blow up.. sabar la nor azni mohd yunos... she just setan in your life.. just ignore her like she doesn't exist.. hate her hate her hate her hate hate her hate hate her!!!!!!!!!!!!! y should i know her? she just a torn in a flesh, only me who should take care of her feeling... hey plEAse go to hell right AWAY!!!!! buthead!!!! blurghhh..

aku sendiri tak caye aku cakap mende jadah ni, studying is best.. seyesly beb, aku pon tak tau tp skang ni rse best jek study n wat assgment.. dunno y la.. maybe da nmpak cahaya kebenaran kot ahahaha (perasan..) tp aku skang ni sedar ttg sesuatu la.. aku da bergantung pada kafein utk stay energetic.. kalo pg2 tak minum instant coffee mesti rse nak tido spanjang hari.. baring jek terlena.. tp aku rs maybe dier ganti balik waktu tido aku yg selame ni aku dok curik.. (alasan semata) ye la biler pk2 aku tido slame ni 2-4jam 1 hari except hari selasa n rabu coz penat kelas commercial.. maybe la kot.. tp aku tak bleh nak study siang2 tu secara bkesan tau coz umah aku ni bising sket so susa nak concentrate.. biler dorg sume da tido baru aman hidup aku tok study (pdhal siang2 men fb.. sbb tu la malas nak study.. kwang3).. tp honestly cakap kita akan pk macam2 kalo dok sorg2, dr perkara bukan2 smpai la perkara yg seyes.. sometime kite bleh gelak sorg2, nangis sorg.. but i think its good.. tp mende2 tu tlh mmatangkan aku dlm byk sudut.. its not like something that we think is useless tau.. in some way mende tu berkesan tok aku.. tak tau la korang kan.. it make me think better.. if u want to know, aku dulu adalah totally berbeza dr y skang ni.. kalo korg tau sejarah hidup aku korg sendiri tak sangka aku bleh jd org yg skang ni.. tp pengalaman aku tu byk mngajar aku erti sabar dan tabah.. dr kck hidup dlm tkanan masyarakat wat aku biasa dgn hidup skang ni.. biar la yg dulu tu pergi, yg penting skang mcm mn aku nak hadapi kehidupan di hadapan aku ni.. harap aku akan ttp tabah bile terjatuh.. dan ade smangat yg kuat utk bgun kmbali.. insyaallah.. mgkin sbb tu tak ramai org paham aku.. well let it be.. roger geng..

hahaha... sian blog aku.... da lame tak update.. tp disebabkan saranan yana aku pon meng updatekan la.. semalam ada kelas komersial yg agak menggilakan kaki ku ini... seyes beb memang penat... aku pon tak tau lew nak gambarkan macam mane... anyway seb bek aku tak kena marah tp sedey tak dapat makan chicken chop... tp takpe.. aku paham konsep rezeki ye disini... balik kul 5 la lebeh kuang... bayangkan la dekat 10 jam bediri.. macam sengal.. tak bleh blah giler... nikmat je kaki aku mase tu tuhan je la yg tau...
balik jek aku n my housemet (tihah la tu..) g beli makanan, ye la kat dapur dapat makan nasi goreng jek...(jeles ngan dak makan dalam restauran... nyampah!!)... sampai2 kat umah dgn gembiranye g tgok cafe aku plak( mcm tak puas2 tgok makanan) kat tenet... tp mate mase tu da tak bleh blah da... lepas solat maghrib aku gagahi jgak mate untuk men game tu lg... hahhaha macam best jek tak study malam tu tp akhirnye ku kecundang jua... mate yg ku than2 itu tertutup jua.... ape bleh wat... aku terbangun kul 10 pastu kiok balik... kesimpulan yg boleh diwat disini ialah aku solat isya' kul 1.34 pg... hahaha bgun terhuyung hayang mcm ayam baru kn sembelih...
rase mcm nak kuarkan jek multicooker aku tu wat creme caramel tp kenyataannyer ialah aku malas nak wat... malas nak beli barang.. poyo la.. da la... sakit kepala la plak... roger n out

takut la nak masak besok.. takut tak cukup mase jek.. ya Allah.. mudahkan la practical exam hambamu ini.. aku rase mcm tak nak tido jek.. takut giler. ntah ape jd ngan pie, ntah ape jd ngan nasi dengan paprik dgn sambal.. sakit pale aku.. gusi pon time2 cam ni la nak bengkak plak.. sedey... harap2 la sumenyer ok... insyaallah..

i'm very depressed rite now... i dont know y but everything not seem rite for me... there are a lot of emotion in me... sad, worried, stressed, anxiety yet try to be happy... i feel so miserable, ifeel like locking my self and hang outside my door "world... dont disturb me" tag.. it is so hard to know that i make someone angry, it is hard to know somebody hate you, it is hard to know that u will have a very hard time with urself, it is hard to go through everyone expectation.. it is hard for me to gave up this life too.. and i end up crying.. and crying..and weak.. i got something to doo that i must do. but i feel so lost,i feel so empty.. someone is criticing me all the time and it is sometimes hurt me.. maybe i appear as tough gal.. but i am not that tough.. there no people that exactly know me.. they didnt really know who i am.. but i'm surviving in patient that i think the only thing that i am good in ..my heart want to explode and burst out.. my tear keep pouring down.. everyone seems to be too selfish. i am sick of these people and they are killing me.. my money is running out.. i cant bear to ask my mom or dad to give me money.. but how can i survive now.. i fell so hard and it is hard for me to climb up back.. i am sick of crying, to think that i need to keep trying, it is really tiring.. with all this dramatic scene, just make me choose to scream.. but i cant really do that.. it is end up stuck in my chest.. rip of my heart make me live in painful life that nobody knows... with very large load in me.. with all the heart ripper in me.. make me want to run away.. away from other.. please.. LET ME GO.. I BEG YOU.. JUST LET ME GO!!

sejak kblkangan ni aku rs aku smkin jauh dgn kwn2 aku.. mcm aku ni dijauhi je.. sedar x sedar aku sedih sendiri..mgkin aku ni buruk prgai kot.. so sume orang tak suke aku.. aku sndiri sedar aku ni krg mtg mgkin ni pon wat org tak slesa dgn aku. tp aku adalah aku.. walau mcm mna aku ubah pon, diri aku yg sbenar akan mncul blik tanpa aku sedari.. stlah skian lame aku fikir, aku sedih sendiri, aku marah dri aku sendiri.. "ko ada tuhan nak mgadu knapa ko lupakan.. bkan ke slama ni Dia la yg beri ko sgalanya yg ko ada.. sedangkan nafas yg ko hembuskan slama ni pon milik Die.. tp brapa kerap perkataan 'ALHAMDULILLAH' tu kluar dr mulut ko slama ni.." mgkin ada hikmah nye org jauhkan diri dr aku.. so, dorg tak kn bala yg tuhan nk bg pd aku.. walau apa pon aku redha kalo ni kehendakNya aku tahu pasti ada hikmah disebalik perkara yg sering kite lihat sebagai bencana...besok aku da start final exam.. mudah-mudahan semuanye bjalan lancar.. untuk kawan2 aku... semoga korg semua dapat rahmat Allah utk exam ni.. harap2 semuanya dipermudahkan olehNya... insyaALLAh.. breusaha semua!!! insyaALLAH kejayaan milik kite.. so jgn lupe study...

jgn smpai stress sgt..

jgn asek bergolek jek....

mcm si emot nik

mggu yang dasat buat diriku yang best ini... setelah satu persatu masalah yang datang daku tempuhi dgn senyuman dan kepeningan akibat daripada penangan dapur dan expo kini diriku ibarat zombie berkeliaran....

semua ini bermula...

aku ada rancangan perniagaan kn wat( tu la wat last minit.. sape suruh..) mase ari sabtu kitorg ni pegi la taip ape yg patut dulu.. mende ni kn letak dalam software dia yg takleh bukak byk kali... so baby(lap top) aku ni pon tak tutup la slame tiga hari(sian dier). kitorg wat dr pg ... sambung lagi mlmnyer.. mase ni aku telah stay di asrama utk menyiapkan kira2 dalam software yg sengal tuh..mase balik 0530.. azan subuh pon da berkumandang. balik tido 2jam..

ditakdirkan pada minggu lepas aku terpaksa melakukan recipe testing untuk assignment food prep ku... namun, kek lapis ku buat hal... terpaksalah aku merempit ke hock kee seng utk membeli brg bg membuat kek itu kali ke dua.. aku terperap di dapur dari jam 8 hinggalah ke jam 4ptg... dgn sabar aku menyiapkan kek tersebut walaupun aku terpakse memonteng kelas microbe(sori dr nizam)... kelas aku plak sampai jam 6ptg utk bba... pastu sambung lg wat rp..pd hari ini ak terpakse tido pukul 4++(da tak ingat kul brape)

esoknye pagi2 aku ada lab kimia yg last... mmg takde mood nak wat lab... tolonglah... mmg tahap gaban la aku punya takde mood tuh.. malam tu aku n da geng pon mula la menyiapkan rp yg agak hell tu...da la mase aku wat yg laen sume tido.. aku pon dgn konsidernye wat la mende jadah tu sorg2...haritu aku balik kul 4.30pg.. tu pon aku tak tido lg mase kat umah... lpas subuh baru tido... tido sjam stngah.. bgun2 minum kopi + koko

besoknyer lab microbe plak pd pkul 0830...

lab microbe aku tgok dak2 kelas da jd zombie+panda.. sume mate takde prasaan n bgkak... nak dijadikan cerita lecturer asas keusahawanan n food prep dok gaduh.. sorg suh p expo sorg suh pg lab.. naseb baik rp da siap... anta malam tu jgak... finally 2 2 kitorg kn pegi... pg pegi lab ptg g expo... mase ni aku da tak sedap badan... mula migrain n sakit tekak da.. da la aku tak bace ape2 utk kuiz food prep... gambar pon tgok 2 jam jek... mis en place sampai kul 6.. pastu mlmnyer kn g kelas PGN plak...esok pagi2 kn pegi lab.. balik pkul 11 tu aku salin recipe, iron baju chef, wat assigment tido kul 0300 kot.. (salin recipe berjam-jam sbb asek salah coz ngantuk sgt... kul 6 da bgun siap2...

esoknyer masuk lab dapur aku rase aku harus pakai mask koz aku da start batuk... then aku pon tgok demo wat roti.. aku da start rase mcm nak collapse tp cepat2 aku kuar demo p minum air suam.. baru lega.. hari tu aku kn wat roti yg paling susah tp aku minat wat roti so au happy jek (mmg aku nak wat roti tu pon) akhirnye roti2 menjadi( makin penat sbb kn uli roti guna tgn dari awal sampai abes) sonok sebab dapat markah penuh.. huhuhu... lepas abes lab kul 1.30 aku n tihah g lab microbe plak tgok result... sian dr nizam tggu kitorg sampai tak pegi makan.. aku pon pegi la bg roti yg aku wat tu kat dr nizam n lab assistant kat situ... sonok tgok dr. makan... macam sedap sgt jekk, mesti tgah lapar giler... kul 2.30 pg dewan sultan mizan plak tuk expo.. qis naku jugak la yg bg penerangan kat peer yang wat evaluation.. tekak ku yg sakit tu ditahan aje la... balik kul 5 tuh aku igt nak tido sejam tp tlajak sampai kul 10mlm(seyesly.. aku tak sedar langsung) kul 10 aku bgun, wat lab report dapur sampai kul 0330.. then sambung tido balik...

expo hari kedua... aku mmg da rase nak demam sgt2 da... pegi anta lab report tu plak kn hujan.. mmg takbleh blah aku pnyer migrain... tp aku diamkan aje... aku g jumpe kulat... g main dgn dier... rase mcm ok sket.. maybe hilang sket tension kot... mmg penat giler hari ni coz aku jrg2 dapat chance nak duduk tau... mmg gilo... balik tu wat ape yang patut then tido.. kul 2230 da tido da.. tp tak lena sebab hidung tersumbat... cuti2 ni pon aku stil tido kul 0300 dan keatas... da la aku nak wat assigment.. tp ni gambar roti aku tu.. name dier chelsea ring

aku tak tau nak cakap minggu nik mmg giler baboon punyer bz..
tgok la senarai kerje aku:
1. siapkan lab report:kimia, microbe n kitchen
2. siapkan rancangan perniagaan utk asa keusahawanan
3. wat kek utk jualan kelab
4.lab: microbe, kitchen n kimia
5. hafal gambar keju n bace bab beef tok kuiz
6. study utk incoming second test n exam
7. bju chef tak iron lg
8. majlis hari raya n family day kelab
9. kutip duit family day
10. salin resipi
11.kena masak nasi minyak hari rabu nik (aku yg masak nih)
12. beli barang tok menu testing (duitku... sayonara..uhuks)

disebabkan hal2 diatas... blog aku ni slalu jek tak terupdate.. sian...
selain yg demikian, aku still nak citer kisah sbelum n slepas rayer..

1. aku blaja wat dessert tp 1 bende pon aku tak bwak balik...





2. aku wat menu
testing... mee bandung muar yg success tp kn wat balik sebab tak yield





3. g makan gulai free kat felda belara lepas abes test food prep



4. majlis buka puasa yg aku kn goreng mihun tok 40 org punyer yield

gilo........ den mmg da nak gilo da ni

Your Birthday is Purple

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You Are Dreamy and Distracted

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

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hellluuu... everyone..

korang nak tau.. aritu aku masak fish fillet manuere with capers tau.. rasenyer eeuuuu tak sedap giler... mmg tak masuk n tak kena dgn anak tekak aku nih.. mmg thap gaban la.. dgn ikan tu ko mkan mcm tu aje siap dgn sos dier yg kitorg wat gune butter cmpur lemon... mmg sengal jek rasenyer.. tp kn mkn gak la kan sebab da masak... tp yang peliknyer... lecturer aku yg fillet ikan tuh "suprisingly quite good"... bia benar... org putih nik mmg suke mkn bende pelik2 la.. aku still tak leh timer die kate sedap.. hahahahaha... tp duchesse potatoes mmg sedap.. manis jek.. duchesse potato tu, kentang yang ko da steam, masak kejap atas api tok keringkan air dier n campur sket herbs n seasoning.. pastu korang kena pipekan mende jadah tuh.. sedapp korg... manis jek.. tp tak letak gula.. pastu kitorang wat sizzling seafood with yee mee.. ala yg besenyer ada dlm menu hotplate tuh.. ni pon aku kurang gak. tp tak tau la mende jadah tuh smmgnyer rase mcm tu ataupon mase aku mkn tuh je da tak sedap.. ye la bulan pose.. mkn lambat sket.. mee tu da kembang.. tp honestly.. lab mase bulan pose mmg best.. sume lab pon jd ok tau.. agaknyer dorg tak larat nak marah org pose2 nik.. hahaha.. tp sejak kbelakangan nih dr. nizam da jd garang sket.. maybe dier pasan yg ade org tak appreciate dier punye effort nak cerdikkan kitorg kot.. aku pon terase gak kdg2.. lambat wat lab rport dier... homework dier.. rase bsalah plak.. tp takpe la skang ni da ok sket kot.. en. hafiz pon tibe2 jd klaka.. ntah ape2.. tp die nak igt nama aku, tak bleh jd.. tak pasal2 nanti asek pggil aku jek.. payah tuh.. takleh rr nak ponteng bace nota nanti.. aritu test microbe nn food chem mcm sengal thap dewa... nape la aku nik tak reti2 nak study awal sket.. kan da jd mcm 2.. padan muka aku..

hehe.. stlah sekian lame aku x meng-updatekan blog, akhirnyer terupdate jugak arini..
bulan2 pose ni penat sket la masuk dapur.. bg aku ok jekk kot sebab tak pressure mcm ari2 bese.. takde la asek nak kene marah jek.. lab assistants pon tibe2 jek jd ok... well aku malas nak cite panjang, mggu lepas aku punyer pastry jd.. so, hepi gak la.. tp ade sket tak masak (isk3 kecewa beb) setelah penat aku menggelek mende jadah tuh akhirnya jd la puff pastry aku... (padahal final roll da tak larat.. tak begerak doh!! wahahaha) ni la rupanye aku punye produk.. nak rase?





k la yek... aku nak g lab microbbe nik... da la vitamin m aku makin kuat dos nyer.. mmg sengal.. hahahah daaaaa... salam n hepi ramadhan...

from deep of my heart.. this song
is dedicated to my mom and dad..
i love them till i die..
don't you ever
mess with them if you don't want to mess with me
if i must die for them then
i will die