Let mE gO

i'm very depressed rite now... i dont know y but everything not seem rite for me... there are a lot of emotion in me... sad, worried, stressed, anxiety yet try to be happy... i feel so miserable, ifeel like locking my self and hang outside my door "world... dont disturb me" tag.. it is so hard to know that i make someone angry, it is hard to know somebody hate you, it is hard to know that u will have a very hard time with urself, it is hard to go through everyone expectation.. it is hard for me to gave up this life too.. and i end up crying.. and crying..and weak.. i got something to doo that i must do. but i feel so lost,i feel so empty.. someone is criticing me all the time and it is sometimes hurt me.. maybe i appear as tough gal.. but i am not that tough.. there no people that exactly know me.. they didnt really know who i am.. but i'm surviving in patient that i think the only thing that i am good in ..my heart want to explode and burst out.. my tear keep pouring down.. everyone seems to be too selfish. i am sick of these people and they are killing me.. my money is running out.. i cant bear to ask my mom or dad to give me money.. but how can i survive now.. i fell so hard and it is hard for me to climb up back.. i am sick of crying, to think that i need to keep trying, it is really tiring.. with all this dramatic scene, just make me choose to scream.. but i cant really do that.. it is end up stuck in my chest.. rip of my heart make me live in painful life that nobody knows... with very large load in me.. with all the heart ripper in me.. make me want to run away.. away from other.. please.. LET ME GO.. I BEG YOU.. JUST LET ME GO!!